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I know that there's a lot to do and it seems as though I can only think at half pace today but there's so much to do and I can't keep track of it all and I need to go faster and faster and faster and faster and faster but I can only move so fast and by God I should have worked out more nothing is moving the way I want it to why is nothing moving the way I want it to oh God oh God oh god, I'm going to be late, and where's the cab...there it is no time to wait sorry old lady but I really need this cab, and here, look, I'm really busy and I'm so sorry goodbye; 23rd and Broadway please, oh what's going to happen to me Joe's going to fire me because there's nothing I've really accomplished within this past month and I need to get those papers processed and I haven't gotten there yet and why and I need to buy Sarah that calculator for school and Lisa needs new pencils, but Jesus Christ why can't she get them herself she's ten years old and it's Uncle Fabio's birthday in two weeks and he's been dropping hints that he's running out of cash again, dear God he's not subtle at all and why and why, Jesus cabbie watch where you're going you idiot, nearly getting me killed who do you think you are, I need to hold on for just another couple of weeks because then I'm going to get that paid vacation from Joe and then maybe I'll get a chance to think and I'll have some time to myself for once and I can finally sort things out and I'll be good to go, and I won't forget things so much and I'll be good to go again...for what? No, there's no use in asking questions like that I'll only get distracted, I need to work, I need to get Sarah those pens and Lisa needs that calculator and maybe after today I'll go Jim's and get a drink, just for old time's sakes, i...